What if...

I really shouldn't even let myself think of all the what ifs.

I was on Mommy Zone tonight and I saw a picture posted. It was a photo of the 2 daughters of one of our members. The older daughter was holding her little sister. They were cheek to cheek, and it was precious. It was really a beautiful picture. I looked at it for a moment and tried to imagine Elise holding a younger sibling.

Then I realized...I may never get to witness that.

Her dad is having another child early next year. This will be his third child. He is a shitty father. I can't understand why he would be blessed with THREE babies. He hasn't participated in raising the first 2, and the jury is still out on the third. I supsect he will not be anymore instrumental in that child's life than he has been in the first 2. He lets a stripper raise his first child. Yes you read that correctly, and yes I am serious. He just had a shotgun wedding 2 weeks ago. Just the thought that he can procreate is such bullshit.

I'm all emotional today, so I must have PMS.