Sunday, October 25, 2009

Everything rides on hope now

Well, I said I was done with this. I was ready to begin the process of accepting our family as complete. I meant it wholeheartedly at the time. But now I am changing my mind.

I've had a series of very vivid dreams over the past 10 days or so. All involving babies - specifically me having them. They are the most wonderful dreams. The pregnancy goes perfectly. I have an uncomplicated, natural childbirth. And I wake up just as I begin to nurse the baby for the first time. I struggle to go back to sleep so I can continue the dream. And I can't stop thinking about it.

I'm not ready to give up. I am going to call the doctor tomorrow and schedule an appointment to formulate a plan. Jamie has never been ready to give up, so he's excited. We have only 2 more weeks of football left, so the timing is good.

I could use tons of prayers, because I'm pretty nervous where this leads us if it doesn't work again.

7 comments:

Tracy said...

Melanie!!!!! I've never stopped praying for you! <3

Laurie said...

I'm praying for you. I think the dreams are a sign from God. I'm just saying.

d e v a n said...

Praying for you!

Jennifer said...

I will be praying for you Melanie!!!

Heidi said...

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Maggie said...

Love and Hugs and Tons of Support!!

surro said...

I'm keeping you guys in my thoughts!