Monday, February 25, 2008

I just need to stop.

I've already given myself a doom and gloom report from the doctor, and my appointment isn't until Friday. Why does my glass always end up being half empty when it comes to this?

I noticed today when I was surfing Mommy Zone that some of the women who started TTC with me are now about to have their babies. One in particular is almost 36 weeks along now. So, it will only be a few more weeks, and women who began the whole TTC journey at the same time as me will be having babies. And I'm still here.

Some days I get so tired of thinking about it that I really just want to give up on the whole idea. We have a great life, and I have a wonderful daughter. Why put myself through all of this? But I just can't accept things as they are yet.

I feel stupid being so melodramatic.

2 comments:

Heidi said...

Melanie-- I completely understand where your coming from! While I'm happy for all of our friends on Mommy-Zone who are newly pregnant or close to having their babies, it hurts that we can't completely share in their joy because of our own situations and personal heartbreak. I'm really struggling with one bfp announcement in particular this week, and I feel like I need to give myself a break. I hope the doctor gives you some good news on friday!

Angie said...

Melanie- *hugs* I am a pessimist at heart, so I know how difficult it can be to be optimistic...

I am praying for good news for you Friday...