Because I am a dingbat

My whole schedule is thrown off by a day. I spaced out on Monday (which seems pretty much the norm for me these days) and forgot to show up for my scan and blood work at 11:00. I got a call around 12:30 asking why I didn't come in. I really didn't have a good answer for that! I just FORGOT. Pitiful. You would think this would be a big enough priority for me that I would remember to keep my appointments...and it IS, but I just don't know what happened. So anyway, they told me not to worry (yeah, right) and just to continue the same dose of Gonal F one more night and come in the following morning. So, I went in today thinking I might have messed things up if my meds needed adjusting.

God is looking out for us at all times, and things went just fine in spite of the fact that I become more flighty with every passing day. I've got a much more reasonable response on the lower dose - 2 follicles (14 & 11) on the right as well as 4 smaller ones. 7 small ones on the left. My E2 number is 498, which is just about textbook. At this point last time it was already well over 1,000 and way too high. So, it appears from today's appointment that we will not be canceling this time! Hooray!

Of course, there's always a slight bump in the road to accompany good news. My lining is only measuring 5mm. Apparently with lower estrogen numbers comes a thinner lining, which I suspected. But I'm learning that this is my body now, and it's probably not going to change. So, what we need is for God to orchestrate this whole process on our behalf and get the eggs fertilized and guided towards a friendly place to hang out for about 9 months...there has got to be at least ONE spot where an embryo could implant SOMEWHERE in there. So, we're praying it will be God's will for the embryo to find that little spot. The good thing is that my right side is better than my left, and I seem to always produce eggs on that side. So, things are working in our favor in that respect.

Dear Lord, please just do the rest for us!!

I go back on Thursday morning for another scan and more blood work. I'm thinking I may trigger ovulation on Thursday or Friday if things are still progressing nicely at that time.

Injectables - Take Two

We started a new injectable cycle on Tuesday. I took my first injection on Thursday, and will be scanned and have bloodwork on Monday. We're on 50 iui instead of 125 iui this time. We will see how it's looking on Monday, and the doctor may or may not adjust the dose.

I have a friend who also uses Dr. Dunn who just recently got pregnant on her 3rd injectable cycle. It's really given me hope - her first 2 cycles were canceled, and the doctor told her there was probably nothing more he could do. She asked to try just one more time, and on the third try her body responded totally differently and she got pregnant! She has been trying longer than me, and I'm just thrilled for her. She's also given me some hope that we still have a chance too.

Jamie said he thinks we should start praying together at night. I love that idea, and I think we will do it.

A great post

This one stuck with me, so just linking to it for those who may be interested. Jamie, Elise, and I saw the movie, and it made me cry several times. It is now one of my favorite Disney films of all time.

Read here

This is a great blog, by the way! I follow it and recommend it!

Two Years

I let our 2 year TTC anniversary pass rather quietly on June 1st. I thought I'd have more to say at this point, but I'm finding myself lacking words when I try to post about it. I forgot about it on the actual day and remembered a few days later. I guess it's like they say: Life is what happens when we are busy making plans.

I'm enjoying our break immensely at the moment. I've lost most of the weight I gained on the injectables and I'm feeling much more like myself again. It's during these times that I begin to dread going back on the meds and question whether it's all worth it or not. I guess in order to really know if it's worth it, I'd need to know the outcome. Hindsight is 20/20 and all.

We are leaving next week for our vacation, and I refuse to give it much thought until we get home. A few days in the crystal clear blue water and white sand will be good for me.

I think the one year anniversary was much harder.

The new song is perfect for my current mindset. We're still standing!

The True Blood TTC Plan

Anyone that has struggled with infertility will be able to appreciate the sentiment of this post. Those who haven't will probably just think we're weird. Sometimes laughter is the best medicine, and Jamie and I have developed a somewhat sick sense of humor lately when it comes to our situation.

We've been watching Season 1 of True Blood in the evenings after Elise goes to bed for about a week now. We're trying to get totally caught up for next Sunday, when new episodes begin on HBO. After all, let's face it - summer TV is scarce at best, so we are kind of getting into this series to have something to watch. It's pretty entertaining.

So, Jamie tells me today that he's got a new TTC plan for us. We call it the Jason Stackhouse TTC Plan. Jamie said we need to watch True Blood every day, and every time Jason has sex with someone, we should have sex! We'll be pregnant in NO time! LOL

Gotta love it.